I am beginning to think I may have lurched downwards in the last few days or so. Helen and my carer summoned a doctor again because my blood pressure was low and instead of going through the old routine of temperature-oxygen saturation-heart rate he talked sensibly about the end-game.
No hospital if it can be avoided. No strenuous resurrection. Keep me comfortable. Sounds good. Meanwhile poor Alexander is on his way to see me because of a blackout I am said to have had. I think I was there the whole time.
No knitting. That’s bad. Part of the trouble —indeed a whole lot of it — is that I sleep very badly at night and then have to make up for it by sleeping all day. I think I’m going to try sleeping in my upsy-downsy chair tonight. I am much more comfortable here. Alexander and Ketki will stay in my bedroom, Helen in the diing room. All waiting for the funeral.
Wordle: five for me, all genuine words I got stuck for lack of the fourth letter. Five for Thomas — his problem was the first letter. Four for Rachel. Three for Alexander and Mark. A brilliant TWO for Ketki. Four for Roger. Three fornTheo.
'Talking sensibly' can be very comforting. I hope people talk like that when my time comes. Prayers for wisdom and peace for you and your family.
ReplyDeleteSleeping in the upsy downsy chair could work. Much better name for it than my brother's, who calls the one we have ordered for my father 'the ejector seat'!
To be kept comfortable is a blessing both my parents were fortunate enough to enjoy. The GP came and talked to them in the same sensible way, but it was 18 months before the discussion became relevant. I hope you sleep well in your comfy chair, dear Jean.
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A comfort, I'm sure, to have your loving family around you. Practical but kind doctors are my favorite ones.
ReplyDeleteSensible words. Thinking of you.
ReplyDeleteAs always thank you very much for posting here, especially when not feeling great. Your readers appreciate it and are thinking of you!
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I think it is lovely that the doctor came to you. He sounds like a caring man. I would like you to live forever as I really enjoy your blog. I know that is not possible so sensibly preparing for the inevitable is comforting.
ReplyDeleteSleeping in the chair sounds like a great idea. Moving from it to a different location daily for knitting is good because you need to change where the pressure is. Perhaps a short time in the bed during the afternoon would be enough of a change, and the chair-bed can have its sheets changed, or whatever is done. Thank you for continuing to post.
ReplyDeletePleasant weather again today in MD.
I second Mary Jane’s comment. Spending a few moments with you when I wake up every morning has been lovely. I hope your transition is peaceful.
ReplyDeleteIn the meantime, I find calling the chair the ejector seat is hilarious. Humour is often inappropriate and a good laugh is never amiss.
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Everything everyone else said. Chloe
ReplyDeleteThank you as ever for sharing bits of your live with us. Your care for your family and the wider world always shines through. If the doctor is right I wish you good travels and much love.
ReplyDeleteAnna from NL
As Anna from NL (Newfoundland?) said. Much love and peace from Canada.
ReplyDeleteWendy from Ontario
I have enjoyed reading your blog for many years. Much love and peace to you and your family.
ReplyDeleteSending hugs and prayers for you and your family. You are brave and a courageous example to us all. Good to have that DR who sounds sensible and caring. 💕💕💕💕💕
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DeleteJust, thank you for the example you set. Thinking of you.
ReplyDeleteI've so enjoyed getting glimpses into your life over the years. Thank you for sharing with us, and being a steady correspondent. Wishing you and your family peace.
ReplyDeleteAs someone else has written — what everyone else has said. Your doctor sounds like a gem. I hope that whatever time remains to you will be lived on your terms. You’ve been one of my “virtual knitting friends” for years — since the days of the old Knit List, in fact when I was just beginning to knit lace, and you sent me the Spider Queen pattern. It is always a joy to find a new post from you. (The Other Kristen, in Western NY State)
ReplyDeleteJean, I so enjoy reading your blog over the years and have taken much encouragement from it. I have knit two wedding shawls that I might never have had the courage to try if you had not spoken about the wonderful shawls you have made. Thank you for sharing vignettes from your life and family. Your positivity has been such a boon to me at the very least.
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