Well, here we go – with panic
approaching a state of meltdown. The wedding guests are beginning to
gather frae a' the airts.. Theo and Jenni and baby Ted are already in Paris, getting over the
jet-lag bit. Greek Helen and her youngest son Fergus will be here
tonight. Everybody else will be on the move soon. Rachel and Ed and
their son the bridegroom will drive north on Wednesday. I think I
won't try to write tomorrow – back here Monday, November 3,
insh'Allah.
As if I wasn't spooked enough already,
I looked at the calendar just now, in happy anticipation of a visit
from one of you in early November, and find that on the 12th
we have an appt at 10:40 -- that's early enough that getting my
husband there won't be easy: and I don't know where it is or what
it's for. “squiggle DS” my handwriting seems to say. Not
podiatry, that's on the 6th. Not flu injections, the nurse
is going to make a house call on a date as yet undisclosed; not
dentistry, his teeth are better and we are to ring up if there is
further difficulty; not diabetes or rheumatology or respiratory,
those are all somewhat in the future. What else is there? If the Good
Lord had meant us to worry, He'd have given us things to worry about
– my very favourite line from Fawlty Towers.
Knitting
All well again yesterday. I did a
scallop on the Bridal Shawl. Perhaps I will record the event here,
the next time I do one that I regard as perfect. It was pretty good
last night, but on row 6, an inward row, I found only one stitch
before the half-way faggoting, where I was supposed to do a k2tog.
Twelve little rows – perfection must be possible.
And Archie's sweater progresses nicely.
Should I take it along to Strathardle tomorrow? It is very
satisfactory, after all this lace, and even after Rams and Yowes, to
be knitting something that progresses. The button bands for the front
placket have been established, and the first buttonhole knit.
“Stranded Colourwork Sourcebook”
turned up in the post yesterday. It's brilliant on colours,
translating things you like looking at, into knitting. I am less
convinced by the parts about charting, but maybe I need to study them
more closely. The book is beautifully photographed and produced. Kate
Davies was involved as editor and friend-of-the-author. Her blog
post on the subject is delightful, and will certainly send me
back to work a bit harder before I consign it to its pile on the
floor.
Life's Problems
Ivy,
I love your idea that agitation and anxiety are to old age as
surliness and bad decision-making to adolescence. I don't know what
SSRI is, but I will ask my GP. And I love your account of the Haiti
Benefit Dinner (link above)– please, please blog some more.
Beverly, I think you may well be right
that occasional help for my husband would be a good idea. If someone
could come even once a fortnight to help with a bath, that would
advance things a lot. It's a very precarious and tricky business,
because of the constant danger of falling, and we don't tackle it as
often as we should. I will discuss this with Greek Helen, who is
nothing if not energetic and organised. She doesn't get it from her
mother.
Ellen, you're absolutely right that
Seasonal Affective Disorder comes into the story. Vitamin D is meant
to help with that, I think. And, Knitalot, your suggestions are all
good. Rachel and Alexander and their families decided when
holiday-ing together this year that we would stop giving Christmas
presents to each other. Wonderful! But unfortunately the parameters were never discussed. Surely it's all right to renew magazine subscriptions
if I know the recipients enjoy them? And I wouldn't dream of not
sending them all the New Yorker, which doesn't even count as a magazine
subscription or as a Christmas present. And surely the Little Boys on Loch Fyne deserve a
little something? But there's the nucleus of a helpful notion there.
And FoggyKnitter, thank you for reminding me of the Jesus Prayer.
There was some unexpected and rather
interesting knitting in the Financial Times yesterday (in the
magazine) but I have been here too long and must leave that for next
time.
Have a wonderful time at the wedding. I hope that the anxiety will abate sufficiently for you to enjoy having your family around you and celebrating.
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DeleteI'll miss your daily notes but will imagine a wonderful time for you!
Blessings!
Vitamin D is to improve your bone strength, it helps your body better metabolize calcium. There are many other claims for it, but most of them have been disproven (this is my physician husbands area of specialty). Full spectrum daylight is the medically proven treatment for SADD, and there is nothing simpler than sitting in front of a bright light for an hour a day, it just has to be the right, full spectrum daylight lightbulb, and these are easily gotten. SSRI's are commonly prescribed anti depressants, and they certainly help, but the daylight bulb (most people use them in the morning, I believe) is something you could do while you write for us, or knit or read, and it's really a matter of why not?
ReplyDeletePlease allow yourself to put all the worries aside, and have a wonderful time at the wedding; let the rest of the family assume all of the rest of these worries, and enjoy the moment.
Enjoy your time with your family Jean and have a wonderful time at the wedding. I trust that your husband and James will also have a happy time together.
ReplyDeleteAnd thank you for your daily blog which provides me, and I'm sure many others, a good deal of comfort and joy...
....pax tecum
Jan, North Yorkshire
Jan, my email is marylou.eganATgmail.com, shoot me a note and I'll see what I find for the Barbara Walker material.
DeleteHave a grand time at the Wedding! Let others do for you and take care of you!
ReplyDeleteHave a wonderful time, Jean! seeing the Princess in action; that has to be a highlight!
ReplyDeleteMaybe cast on a Fair Isle swatch, using your brightest colours, would help on the dark days.
Full-spectrum lamps shed a lovely light, make it easy to judge colors, and can be bought to fit almost all light fixtures. SADD or not, I think more people should use them.
ReplyDeleteFred Astaire said, "The higher up you go, the more mistakes you are allowed. Right at the top, if you make enough of them, it's considered to be your style."
SSRIs can affect balance in the elderly, I'd be cautious about that. A low dosage of an anti-anxiety drug for just when you feel panicky might be the best way to go instead of an SSRI (which you take daily to build up serotonin levels in your brain). Also, these drugs can work very differently in different people so figuring out which ones are right for you atm can be a long and arduous process of trying different meds.
ReplyDeleteNote, not a doctor, just way too much experience with clinical depression and the drugs used to treat it. Stupid brain, not liking serotonin :)
eagerly awaiting the next installment.
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